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Getting back on my paws…

Lately I have been depressed again… feeling quite down for not doing things I would rather love doing, but I guess that’s life… but that’s when I remembered those good times I had in the past.

So I have decided, and hope to be able to achieve, to get back on my paws… and eventho I’m just 2, I’ll try to at least start crawling back to where my life was a bit happier.

I think I will start to do them diaries again so as to release some stress from daily events… also start to take better care of my health; not that is in danger or something, but I have really let myself go (went from size 31 to 33)… I need to eat less junk food and more healthy snacks…

I also need/want to wear a diaper on my mouth and stop being such a potty mouth… tho I don’t say obsenities in public outloud, I still say them to myself which for me is a bit of a bad habit…

 

I want these changes in my life… why? ‘Cuz I just want something to change in my life… I may not be able to change everything but I will give it a good try… and don’t worry, I won’t be making myself suffer and taking things a bit tooooo far… so no starving myself and such…

*hugs everyone*

:3

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Windows 8 and Office 2013 Testing… -_-

Well, I’m testing the new Windows 8 Pro (x64) and the Office Professional Plus 2013… and I got a few things to say about it…
FRIKI ALERT:: Skip all this if you don’t want to read a bunch of technicalities about Windows 8 and such…

FRIKI::
I’m getting used to it, but not really liking it like I love Windows 7… well, maybe a little… there are a few things that I like about Windows 8, after some hacks and mods are made, that beat Windows 7…. the main thing is that Win8 is more umm… “personal”.

You see, after using some mods (like the gadgets and the Metro start menu mod/hack), the computer can feel a bit more like a personal computer… you can also now use numbers in the user account, which if I do recall, you can’t do in other Windows distros (i think)… also, you can easily edit the lock screen image too, which kinda makes the C:\Windows\System32\oobe\default\backgroundDefault.jpg hack a bit obsolete.
Overall, the Windows 8 has made the computer more “personal” by adding way more graphical interface than other Windows distros… however, it can only be done by hacking/modding a few settings, which isn’t illegal to do really since no registry edition is made…

On the other hand, some things suck ass… things that one who has used Windows since XP says “Microsoft, WHAT IN THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING!!!”

To begin with, NO MORE START BUTTON…. yeah, no more classical Start menu button, but instead the Metro Start Menu Screen, which is the first thing to load at login, tho you can choose to load Desktop first with another hack… also, HIBERNATION IS TURNED OFF AUTOMATICALLY!!! Yep, if you have a laptop, then you need to go to the power options, choose what closing the lid does, change setting that aren’t currently available, and then turn on Hibernate…. I hate this a bit cuz I can’t do my quick hibernate (WinKey, right-arrow, right-arrow, enter)… in order to shutdown, restart, hibernate, sleep, you need to place the mouse pointer to the upper right corner, settigns, power and choose… -_-

There are more things I dislike, but I’m getting used to them… I’m also testing programs that don’t work on Win8, like Avira Antivirus… it creates a BSoD (which, btw, it was also changed to a light-green/blue screen with a bit of text that makes the dump file and a 😦 <–that) that reads “BAD_POOL_HEADER”… so yeah, it was even tough to get to the Safe Mode since you now must hit Shift and smash F8 to enter the settings, but its even trickier if it allows you to get in… and yes, you need safe mode to uninstall Avira… trust me… -_-

 

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So yeah, testing out windows 8 has been tiresome to me… i must do this in order to be able to update myself on technology… luckily, i installed Win8 Pro on an old hard drive I had laying around… so I still got my Win7-Ubuntu all intact!! ^_^

I still don’t like Win8 THAT much as to make me switch… i’ll just wait until windows 9 comes out… but for now, testing must be done… =P

THIS MUST END!!!

That’s it… I’m tired and sick about it… it MUST END!!!

Yes, PROCRASTINATION MUST END!!!! I can’t sit back and do nothing anymore… its too much and I do NOTHING… so NOTHING gets done… and well, I am now in the process of finishing all that I started and never really got to finish…

For starters, I am completing my diary entries that I never really got to finish… it’s a bit like cheating, yes, but I wrote little notes down saying what I did on that day… why am I doing that? Cuz I kinda want to… it will be like a small autobiography on my life… so far, I have 386 entries, meaning 386 days has passed since the fire nation attacked I wrote my first entry… a LOT has changed…

Second, I shall continue writing my guide… it’s been on a HUGE standby now and it needs to be finished… sure, I have no rush and nobody really NEEDs it right now… but the sooner I finish, the better I shall be able to feel much better about it… but that will take a while to finish the way I want it to finish…. =P

Then, I must finish reading some stuff I need to really read!!! There is the fan-fic from Brandon… “The Hunger Games” book I bought and barely started to read… and some stories from Yure in FA and his blog…

Lastly, I need to finish the 100-themes challenge!!! But I must first start to draw anything cuz I’m really just out of it… I tried drawing somthing and failed… so that really sucks… I need to do my practice sketches, get in a bad/sad mood and draw that emotion…

Yeah, that’s kinda what I need to do… unfortunately, it’s easier said than done… and if you’ve noticed, I didn’t say anything about the story I’m making (The Specialists) cuz I’m not sure if I will continue it or scrap it… it all depends on the rest…

*sigh*
Lots of work for me… but I WANT to do it… =P

Procrastination sucks… -_-

I know, I know… it’s been a bit long since my last write in here… but it’s not that I’ve been busy, it’s more cuz I have been 1) too damn lazy and 2) like Yure said, “I’m unmotivated/uninterested”…

As much as I hate it, I feel that it’s true… I stopped caring about many things… I tried drawing a few days back and I couldn’t do it!!! I tried drawing like I used to, tried drawing Childish again, but when I tried, it came out all wrong… I haven’t written anything in my journals since last month, so I now have around 2 month’s worth of journals to write into… I haven’t written anything in my story and my guide… and what’s worse, I feel crappy…

Remember that time where I felt that I was losing my ABDL side?? Well, it’s happening again… and this time it’s not cuz of not time, but because of what happened that August 13th… yes, even after almost 2 months passed, I still have the effects from it, but now I’m wondering, who is to blame for this??
I blame myself for putting up too much info in public places, and I also blame my brother for beings such a f-ing a-hole to have rated me out… but why did I “try to change”??? It was because of my mom, but I actually told them that day “I can’t promise anything for I know that anything I say won’t be true from the heart because I feel that I did nothing wrong!”. So, why do I have the feeling???

My guess here is that I feel this way because in my mind, I thought that my mom could have understood me and I also had the idea of “if she truly loves me, she’ll try to accept me for who I am”… but sadly, the answer was the exact OPPOSITE… so now I know this from her: she loves me, but is more into her religious views and closed mind that she won’t accept me for who I am… EVER!!! She will NEVER accept me as her son the way I truly am… so I decided to keep away from her and never tell her anything about me, only what I think she must know (health issues, certain problems, etc)…

That’s my guess for all this… this feeling of  “saudade”… *sigh* I miss everything in my life…

T-T

last week of school ^^_

YAY!!! NO MORE SCHOOL!!! … cept for tests… -_-… and this week has been quite mood-swingy like… I think it’s been fun and weird for me… you be the judge…

So, to start off, yes, this WAS my last week of school… I only have the finals to work on now, but seeing that I never studied, I don’t care and I pretty much just lost all interest in med school, I think I’m going to fail most of them if not all… why go then? Just to finish this semester and get it over with… the only test I WILL study for is the admission exam for Systems Engineering (coming this 8th).
The school psychologist is plain boring… all she did was make me takes these stupid personality tests and thats it… but I won’t get to see them cuz I won’t go back to her office again… (lol)

Life:
It has been awkward for me… it went from sadness, to ENVY, to anxiety, and then happy… and at the moment painful. Sadness cuz I’m bored and I can’t do much about it. I want to draw but I kinda suck at it anyways… *sigh* I need to do something… and I had envy at this furry kid in FA (Ven) cuz he has the TB life I ONLY DREAMED OF come to life… I would post his journal link here, but I duno… I don’t like doing that much without permission, cuz it feels like I might be getting them in trouble… so instead I’ll post his journal without linking… JUST REMEMBER THIS ISN’T MY LIFE!!! (though I wish it were) T-T

So I went to bed padded… as usual how ever i woke up to my mom sitting on the side of my bed stroking my head and patting my wet diaper (i don’t know why i started wetting the bed again). So i look at my diaper and it was a dark yellow color! so then i acted angry and blusher A LOT! Then she said “he’s back!” And i asked “who?” Then she said “…. My baby.” then she kissed me on the head and gave me a big hug! Then she handed me a pic she got of me and it said “before” and it showed a pic of me as a baby. Then it said “after” and showed a pic of me that night! It had me snuggling my plushie, in my wet diaper and t shirt. Then on the bottom it said ” can you see the difference? I can’t! =P So thats when i think i turned a completely new shade of red! Then she said it time to get up my little crinklebutt! So yeah I’m still trying to comprehend all of this!

Well, with that little journal I got OVERLY pissed at his life and mine… but after talking it out to myself in a recorded journal (just recording myself with my phone), I was able to get rid of all the jealousy (felt something lifted off of me, no kidding) and replace it with err.. love?… I duno… I mean, after that I read this and all I can say is “AAWWWW!!!” and “THAT’S SOOOOOO CUTE!!!”… sure, I still wish that were my life, but not feeling hatred towards him…

Anyways… I also got  anxious about a job cuz I might be able to get in!!! It’s a ummm… cybercafe? duno what you would call it in English… it’s a place with many computers where you can use one for whatever… but they also have a department of computer maintenance of a somwhat big movie theater and other companies… and they employer (seeing I want to switch careers) said I would start in the cyber and then he would transition me to the systems… so I hope I get in, and best of all, it’s VERY close to my house, like 3 minutes away walking… I’ll know what happens next week…

And now I’m in a bit of pain cuz the last 2 wisdom teeth where pulled out today… so it hurts a bit yes, but I won’t have any problem with them anymore… so that’s ummm… better? And also, I got this amazing gift art by rogerwolf92 from FA… it’s awesome!!! and I obtained permission to use the colors he used with my fursona as my own… so now “childish” has colors!!! and the shape I plan on making it in reference to Yure’s drawing…

^^_

Home sweet blog…

It took me about… err… hour and a half, but I was able to get all my posts with their respective tag and into their category… phew!!! *wipes off sweat from forehead*
It would’ve been much easier and faster if i hadn’t made a mistake… i deleted some categories cuz i need them for tags, but silly me, I didn’t read the link that said “Convert categories to tags”… so my expression was “FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!”… ok, maybe not that harsh, but more like “Damn it!!!”…
So yeah, took all this time to get this blog shaped and organized the way I wanted, but not 100% done… im almost never satisfied with blogging look and feel… but that’s just me…

As for the other blog, I will do like Yure suggested… keep using it for mature content only while making this one the “Official” 1childish1 blog… however, i have yet to learn SO much from WordPress… like what the “Report as Mature” link is all about… do i report myself as posting mature stuff so they censor it? What’s with the “Path: p” at the bottom of the ‘Edit Post’ section? Why do they have a goal system of posts (I need 35 for what purpose)? and more that I can’t think of right now…

*sigh* now I’m off to school… not fun at all… need to still do TONS of work for some classes, but I’m getting along…

*crinklehugs to everyone*
=P

Well, I’m just checking out what we have here in WordPress… not very sure if I can find big differences between both blogging sites, but I will try my best to check out both of them.

Also, if I stay in this one (which I just might), I have NO clue what to do with the other blog, whether to delete it, leave it without logging back in, or use it for something else (like for tutorials or somthing else which I duno what)…

So, any ideas what a blog can be good for?? I really don’t like being too much of a burden on anyponythus I would just like to have 1 blog unless I really find use for the second blog… and no, work related stuff is not much of an option cuz, what work? I’m in school and for that we have this anti-social networking site that is more like a virus… or meme? yeah, cuz virus sounds too harsh,and that poniesoverly use and have not much for real contact IRL… if you don’t know what I’m talking about, this site has a huge “F”as it’s logo and the most popular slogan is “Like Us on F…”
Still clueless or your just waiting for me to answer… fine, Facebook, happy? Yeah, I don’t like FB much, but it is my ONLY means of comunication in school since they give out help, quick info, photos of certain lab stuff, etc. So I’m stuck with it, and since I don’t like having 2 separate accounts, I made my FB very personal, so all info in it is true and it does say that I’m an ABDL, Furry and Brony…

Anyways, I  best be going… it is 03:40 am right now and I only have a few hours to do some school work and then head over there… hmmm, any idea what the “Path: p” means?… oh, I’ll just look it up in some vids about WordPress… might as well see what kind of stuff I’m allowed to post or if I need to make it like in Blogger where I must put up the “18+” warning button just so I don’t get into any trouble, not sure if WordPress has that or if it’s “write whatever you want, I don’t give a cookie about it”…

=P

Hello world!

Well, as I said in my other blog… I wanted to try out WordPress and see how it feels, looks, etc… right now, I can’t say which one I will keep, or if I’ll delete one of them or not…

=P

 

Hey there people, how’s your life treating you??? Well, hopefully better than mine…

So, this past week, I’ve been on vacations… we have this week called “Semana Santa” or ‘Holy Week’ where people do somthing church related… apparently, they don’t eat meat on thursday and friday… but since im not catholic (nor much of a christian either) i didnt do anything about it.

Anyways, all I did this week was… sleep, eat, play, roleplay, post crap on facebook, eat some more, go potty, paw* from time to time, do som homework, and repeat… i also watched some videos, did some subtitles work on a few videos i had, organized my 1TB external HDD, etc…

It was somewhat of a boring week, but I at least got to sleep in a few days!!! I also did some homework, so it wasn’t a complete waste of time… and Yure gave me this vid with the music for a game called “VVVVVV” and here is an overall of the game… IT IS AWESOME!!!! short, but still great!!! quite challenging…
I’ll say “get the demo or buy the game” so i am NOT encouraging for anyone to do a google search for “VVVVVV 2.0 torrent” and download it and play it… support the people who make these games and more!!! and also, THE CHIPTUNE MUSIC FROM IT ROCKS!!! i fell in love with “Positive force” especially after 00:41… *gets teary* yeah…

*sigh* that’s my entire week… nothing left to say i think… maybe that we got a new camera (14 megapixels Lumix)… and yeah…

Now, I’m actually thinking of moving this blog to WordPress for a change… the thing is that I keep hearing from some places that wordpress is much better than blogger in quite a handful of ways they can’t seem to point out very well… not that I have anything against blogger, but i wana see what the bigg fuzz is about wordpress. For one thing, you have no captchas for those who don’t have an account there, and you also get email notifications if you opt for them… so i might try to create a wordpress blog, but will need some more searching bout it before going for it (just to see if i can transfer my blogs from here to there, which they say it is now easier than ever before to do so).

=P

New To Blogging

Well, this is it, the title says everything. This is my first time blogging and… yeah. I will keep posting up later when I have time, but right now I must go back to paying attention to the substitute teacher. =P