Welll… its been quite a long while since I last wrote here… and yet, i feel bad about it…

Umm… what can I say?? I’m not really myself still I guess… I mean, the depression is over, which is great! but the feeling of lazyness and crapy state is still here… so I haven’t done much really… school has been taking on me for some time now and Oreo has also done that too….

I have NOT written anything in my diaries except for a tiny summary of my day in each one of them, so now I have about 34 diaries that need completion… why? cuz i want to complete them, yet i duno why i dont… i have free time to do so, but there is somthing that just wont let me… it aint anyone or anything, but something is bothering me that keeps me from acheiving that goal of mine… i wish i knew…

but anyways, im doing OK in school and my family has laid off me as well… I’m not doing their church crap and religious shit, so im glad about that cuz I aint going back to one ever again if I can help it… however, they are still quite a-holes in the fact that my brother gets more rights than me and yet im the one who pays the price of doing somthing… but i can try to handle that….

ugh… im out of ideas, out of imagination, out of thinking, out of my mind, out of my soul, out of every single emotion for some reason…. i duno why… really wish i could cub out for a full day and see if that does the trick, but it seems like im never (and i mean NEVR) going to be alone in the house to do so…

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