WARNING… this post will be different than the rest… mainly because I will use strong language to make my point a bit clear… so I’m sorry if I offend anyone, which isn’t my intention…

This week was amazingly awesome at first and then it turned to SHIT!!!

To start off, I decided to do my cubbing out on Thursday… and so I went out from Monday through Wednesday to buy the supplies… you know, stuff for that Thursday night, which was nothing but a baby bottle with a scrub for cleaning it, a pacifier with clip, wipes, powder, and lastly the diapers. It was kinda fun looking at all that stuff…
The main reason was because I felt that my infantilist side was kinda dying or something… more on that here… but once that Thursday night came, I felt SOOOO wonderful doing that!!! It was the best feeling ever!!! I loved it very much, and my feelings came back to me!! So yeah, it was a very fun weekend because I not only was that Thursday nght, but even Friday and all the way to Sunday… it was epicly fun… and especially when I was with my cousin. She knows about it, and I’m glad she thinks it’s cute.

And all starts well ends well right? WRONG!!!!

You see, my mom had gone off to Mexico DF (the capital of this fucked up country) to try and get the VISA for going back to the US for a visit… and everything went alright at first, and then just today Monday was the day they denied it. FUCK!!!! And that’s when I got pissed off with God and came with this conclusion…

Happiness is an illusion, created by mankind to find meaning to life, and destroyed by a God that enjoys to see his creation go through many events of pain and seeing them suffer. He loves to see those who love Him suffer and go through so much pain, and I proved it… I don’t wana go into that rant, so here is the link to the journal in FA…

Sorry, I still feel bummed out for this… so I can’t say much but I’m sorry to everyone… and I’m sorry for not replying Yure… I have no excuse really… I am… ugh…

*cries* T-T

and as a final note, I finally dropped out of med school officially… so I am no longer able to go back ever again in my entire life… seriously, i cant ever go back now…

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